So here is where I am going to log my process and thoughts about my son. I have to do something to be able to get rid of all of the frustration that I have with him so maybe logging in what is going on would be the best way to handle a lot of what is happening on my end. They say that my son has ADHD. One thing that I will never forget that my Uncle told me when the first time that he got examined was, “He paid really close attention to all of my directions while I was checking him. Most of the children that I get in here for this are all over the place but he is not.” I agree. He is not usually all over the place in the sense that he cannot stop the fiddling in extreme measures. He fiddles around and he moves around a lot but not excessive. I think that if anything he has a very mild case of ADHD but I also think that this Oppositional Disorder is something else that may be a possibility. When thinking about what an Oppositional Disorder means is that the child just won’t listen. So, one can be medicated for being subborn and hard headed? I can tell that my son needs something to teach him how to control his impulses right now but I really do struggle with the idea that he is being put on medication so that I am able to cope with him and everyone else is able to cope with him. Maybe I should just take him out and home school him. He might just benifit more in the education department but what about the social aspect of that? I will still keep him in sports and we will continue to go to church regularly but there is still more social interaction in the schools than those two things combined. Then if I would home school him, would I also take Ana out of school and teach her at home as well. I am sure that she would be quite upset if brother got to stay home with Mommy and she didn’t.
With everything that I go through with Leonce, Anastasia is such a good natured child. She doesn’t really do anything that she isn’t suppose to do and because of this, I feel like Anastasia is missing out on a lot of time with me and attention with me. I want her to get everything that she needs from me as well. She just kind of stands in the back ground a lot of the time … even though I am sure that she doesn’t want the same kind of attention that her brother is getting considering that he does get punished a lot, I know that she still wants my attention all the same. You know what they say, Negitive attention is better than no attention at all. I don’t want her to get to the point that she is going to want to start acting out because I am not paying enough attention to her.
Today is a day of deep thought about everything in my life. Maybe I am just over thinking the whole situantion and I am just a worried mother…. Or maybe I am right and I need to be a little bit more careful about things.